Right now, I just don't wanna think of anything else I just wanna jump to bed and pull my blanket over my head. Lost, i'm completely lost. The willpower in me suddenly just left. Lying on my bed it suddenly hit upon me that I can never be who I wanna be. Having mixed emotions all lump inside of me. I never meant or want things to turn out this way, trying i just gotta keep trying. It funny how ' capable ' am I of doing things. I've been sitting down with my ego, its bruising. I no longer have faith in myself, i kept thinking to myself - Am I all that I am made up of and nothing else? I never wanted to be anyone else's burden. Can't even describe my feelings properly now, and i never want to lose you. Cause only you, you can make me feel as if everything is alright. I never really felt worthless being with you. I never wanna make you feel as if i'm nothing but a pile of shit throw at you to clean up the mess in me. I just wish deep down inside me that i'm somehow, i'm not that worthless. However because of you, I refuse to kick the bucket, because of you i'm going to try even harder. It seems like I was born to put in 200% in everything I do to make things work.. I have no idea if I can even trust myself. I need to pick myself up, somewhere along the way.
Saturday, December 3, 2011
Think deep, doubts.
Right now, I just don't wanna think of anything else I just wanna jump to bed and pull my blanket over my head. Lost, i'm completely lost. The willpower in me suddenly just left. Lying on my bed it suddenly hit upon me that I can never be who I wanna be. Having mixed emotions all lump inside of me. I never meant or want things to turn out this way, trying i just gotta keep trying. It funny how ' capable ' am I of doing things. I've been sitting down with my ego, its bruising. I no longer have faith in myself, i kept thinking to myself - Am I all that I am made up of and nothing else? I never wanted to be anyone else's burden. Can't even describe my feelings properly now, and i never want to lose you. Cause only you, you can make me feel as if everything is alright. I never really felt worthless being with you. I never wanna make you feel as if i'm nothing but a pile of shit throw at you to clean up the mess in me. I just wish deep down inside me that i'm somehow, i'm not that worthless. However because of you, I refuse to kick the bucket, because of you i'm going to try even harder. It seems like I was born to put in 200% in everything I do to make things work.. I have no idea if I can even trust myself. I need to pick myself up, somewhere along the way.
